Heaven Is Here

For the last couple years I have read "Nie Nie's" blog, such an inspiration.  I didn't know she had a book out, and if I would have known sooner I probably would have already had it read (I know it just came out).  I decided that it would be fun for me and my sisters to read it together and then we could talk about it...like a book club of sorts.  So yesterday I told my sister to buy it and I would buy it as well.  I bought it last night at about 10:30 and I read several chapters last night.  And all I wanted to do when I woke up is read!  I have read it almost all day except for the occasional breaks to feed, change and play with Crue.

Its such an inspirational book, I can't imagine was she went through and what she is still going through.  I read about her life and it makes me want to be a better mom, Crue looks up to me as his mother and I want to be there for him ALWAYS.  In her book there was one part that has really struck me so much so that I was in tears, she was in the hospital just a few weeks before she would be released and the Dr. wanted her to have her kids come up and see her.  He felt like it was part of the healing process.  And her daughter came in the room after not seeing her mom for 5 months, and looked at her and quickly looked away.  And left the room and didn't want to see her mom.  And still further into the story she still hasn't faced her mom, and Nie Nie said she just cried all night, because she felt like her own kids didn't love her anymore.  I don't think Jane wasn't coming to see her mom because she didn't love her but probably because she was simply scared by the change in her mom.

I worry that one day Crue won't think I am that "cool" anymore and maybe he wouldn't love me as much as I love him.  Overall I just want to be a better mother, and wife because of this book.  Its truly amazing, everyone should read it...it is a tear jerker.

We MOVED!

We have been wanting to move for the last little while, because it was getting hard to haul our laundry to Payson every Sunday and try and get 6 loads done in just a short amount of time.  So I would check Ksl several times a day trying to find somewhere with a washer and dryer or at least hook ups.

We couldn't really find any in our price range, so my mom gave me the idea to look the old fashioned way (in the newspaper classifieds) we found our new apartment and moved in a week after looking at it and paying the deposit.  It was a hard adjustment at first because our landlord changed our contract dates on us and so we had to end up selling our contract before April 5th or we would of had to pay 2 months rent, which we couldn't afford.  I won't lie I cried a few times over how stressed everything was, and how I questioned if we were "supposed" to move when we did.  It finally sold a week ago, and so there has been a HUGE burden lifted off our shoulders.  We love our new place; there is more room, more storage and a bigger kitchen which I like.

Crue update:
With all the moving, and cleaning our old apartment Crue got a cold.....again.  I hate that he got sick again, but I am not sure if it was very avoidable.  I feel like a horrible mom because of how many colds he has gotten in the last 2 months.  I dress him warm, and try not to get him around any sick kids but I guess it just happens.  Here are a couple things that Crue is up to at 8 months.
1. He loves sitting up and playing, he started sitting up (unsupported) at about 6.5 months.
2. He loves every kind of baby food, although he isn't to fond of green beans.
3. He flaps his arms really fast when he is excited. (I love it), I should get a video of that one.
4. Every time we eat dinner or he see's someone eating he gets excited and annoyed that he isn't getting any food.
5. He is very good natured, he is content playing with his toys for a little while at least.
6. He sleeps so good, we usually put him to bed around 10 or 10:30 and he sleeps until 8-9 am.  He also still takes a morning nap and a late afternoon nap.
7. He started to play in the bath at about 6.5 months.  I think at first he wasn't to sure about it.
8. He wants to crawl so bad, but he can't figure it out.  He gets on his stomach and reaches for something and just kicks his legs as fast as he can.
9. He is definitely a momma's boy, he snuggles into my neck and gives me slobbery kisses.
10. He loves anything electronic, he studies anything and everything including his feet.  He could stare at his feet ALL day.
11. He loves wearing hats and shoes (he takes after me, I love shoes).

I could go on and on, I love him.  Being a mom is hard and there are days that I would like to just sleep in and not worry about anything, but I wouldn't change being a mom for ANYTHING.  Crue has brought so much to my life and to our lives.